As the fourth and fifth
year passed in a blur of events, you are still dearly missed, Di.
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This was a birthday card from me to dad |
It is the start of 2021 and
you will be pleased to know that mum is keeping well. She turned 88 in 2020 and
is coping with her weak legs, aches and pains, and all the ailments that come
with advancing age.
I often say, “There are no
spare parts,” so we help mum to manage her discomfort with medicinal rubs,
exercise, and massage therapies. With so much physical pain, now she feels
comfortable when we wheel her about on the wheelchair.
In February 2020, we went
to watch the award-winning movie, The Garden of Evening Mists, made into
a film from a book by Malaysian novelist, Tan Twan Eng, that was first
published in 2012.
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Ready to enjoy watching the movie, Garden of Evening Mists
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I thought you would relate
well with this historical drama because it was filmed at various sites in
Pahang and Perak where the scenery reflected the beauty of Cameron Highlands in
post-World War Two.
These are places you are
familiar with because you grew up in Ipoh and spent your holidays with the Sung
family, who were then based in Cameron Highlands.
We were glad to have caught
it on the big screen (it was almost the last day for this show!) to better
appreciate the panoramic views of the sweeping landscape scenes.
Incidentally, I watched
this movie again when it was featured on the cable TV and a second viewing
helped me better understand the story because the movie script differed
slightly from the text in the book.
This movie outing was the
last time we took mum out because by March 2020, the threat of the Covid19
pandemic had reached our shores and there was news about the nationwide lockdown
and border closing between Malaysia and Singapore.
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Mum enjoyed doing some gardening |
Then in mid-March 2020, we
received the sad news about the passing of grand-uncle Leong in Singapore. I know
you and mum were close with grand-uncle and his wife, Lau Yee, and we did not
hesitate to bring mum to his wake to pay our last respects.
Grand-uncle left
peacefully at the ripe old age of 90 on March 13 and his funeral was arranged
for March 17 when the border-closing between Malaysia and Singapore was
scheduled to start from midnight on March 18.
While our relatives from
the North had to cancel their travel plans into Singapore, Ruby and I managed
to take mum across the causeway to attend the wake on March 16 and returned
safely in a smooth drive.
At 9pm that same evening,
the Malaysian Prime Minister announced the nationwide Movement Control Order
(MCO), a lockdown that would start from March 18 to 31.
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Your African daisies in bloom!
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Our timing was perfect
because on March 17, the border-crossing was simply chaotic as those employed
in Singapore or who had family members in Johor, made their decisions to cross
the causeway to stay in either country when the border closed on March 18.
While we initially
imagined that the MCO would be implemented for just two weeks, the lockdown period
was extended from time to time.
After the Movement Control
Order (MCO) expired, the lockdown continued with the Conditional Movement
Control Order (CMCO) that expired on June 9. Then we moved into the Recovery
Movement Control Order (RMCO), a lockdown period until August 31 with less
limitations.
Since March 18, many
families have been separated on both sides of the causeway – for some 300 days and
counting – while the border between the two countries remained closed in early
2021.
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Your Dancing Ladies in bloom!
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On April 4, we received another
sad news that Granduncle Mak, in a Singapore nursing home, had passed
peacefully. Due to the MCO in Malaysia and the Circuit Breaker in force in
Singapore, only his immediate family could attend the funeral.
The Stay Home to Stay
Safe concept was something new for many elderly folks who were used to
their usual routines. It took some time to explain it to mum and as we showed
her the daily news, she managed to grasp its seriousness.
Uncle Roland and his wife,
Aunty Elizabeth, who were staying with cousin Philip during the lockdown, were
however, struggling to cope with the Stay-Home restrictions.
Every now and then, I
would receive a call from Philip who would air his rants about the challenges
in coping with his father, who kept insisting on going back to Kota Tinggi.
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Fresh durian for mum to enjoy!
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Before the MCO, both uncle
and aunty were unwell and admitted to the Kota Tinggi hospital as well as
Hospital Sultan Ismail, several times for various ailments arising from old
age. On May 14, Aunty passed peacefully due to complications due to diabetes.
Ruby and I supported the
family through this bereavement, especially as there were strict rules to
follow for wakes and funerals during the MCO. Mum was understandably, deeply
affected by her passing.
We were thankful that mum
gradually understood and accepted the “new normal” and adjusted to it by
keeping herself busy at home, cooking, gardening, and watching Cantonese TV
drama series in the evenings.
At the peak of the MCO,
only one member of the family was permitted to go out and only for essential
reasons like grocery shopping or medical aid. So, no prizes for the right
guess, who had to do the grocery shopping…
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Finally her pretty self again!
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It was usually during
breakfast that I would ask mum to tell me what items she needed, and I would
write a list of what to get and from where. As you well know, she has her preferred
choices of specific items to buy from which merchant, so I obeyed her every
wish to meet with her requirements.
Interestingly, there were
food ingredients like some types of preserved vegetables that mum would say only
in Cantonese or Teochew dialect. I would then ask her to describe, just to
learn what each item was – lest the merchant tried to sell me something else!
Mum would also describe
the shape of the bottle or jar and the colour or picture on the label to help
me find the specific item or sauce. It was indeed eye-opening for me to
discover the ingredients that mum preferred from among the wide choices
available in the market!
The Stay-Home experience
was also good for me because I finally got down to tackling the long-overdue projects
at home. I must confess that since you left us, it was just too difficult to
deal with your stuff, Di.
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Mum with her two younger sisters, Polly [Left] and Sylvia at mum's birthday in September
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One of these tasks was to
clear and dismantle the storage rack in the garage where you stored spare
electrical wires, sockets, nuts and bolts, for “just in case” they may be
useful again. You will be pleased to know that I gave it all away to one who
would put your things to good use.
Another long overdue task was
to declutter my wardrobe (!!). I did not know it then but looking back, I am
glad I completed this project comfortably then because later in the year, this
decluttering was one less task to do.
The storehouse was another
space to declutter. I had the team from Yellow Box over to help collect the old
newspapers, glass, paper and plastic that were accumulated, and had them all cleared
out for recycling.
On June 10, hardly a month
since the passing of his wife, Uncle Roland succumbed to his illness and passed peacefully at age 89. Thankfully, travel restrictions were relaxed for the RMCO
and with inter-state travel opened, his siblings could come for his funeral and
send-off.
It was already mid-June when
we finally ventured further in search of fresh durian for mum to indulge her
desire for The King of Fruits. This was indeed a timely treat for mum as she
was strictly obeying the Stay-Home advice.
Meanwhile, mum and I have
not had our regular haircuts since March and with our short hairstyles growing
out of shape (Read: control), we kept our hair in place with the use of
hairbands. Our much-needed haircuts were – to say the least – a major relieve.
When hairdressers could
open again, I fixed an appointment for myself first. It was a by-appointment-only
arrangement so I went for the first hairdressing experience since the MCO so
that I could prepare mum, when she would go next to pretty herself again.
In early September, mum’s
sisters and their spouses came to celebrate mum’s birthday. We had a low-key
birthday dinner where we were compelled to sit apart according to physical
distancing rules, even though we were within a private dining room (!!)
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You and mum shared more than fifty years together!
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It was good to be together
again, but we could not help feeling a tinge of sadness because thus far in
2020, four senior family members had left us due to old age and illness.
Then on September 12, we
received sad news from the UK that Pearly’s father-in-law had also passed
peacefully. Grandad Wallace’s passing brought the total number of family
members who had left us in 2020, to five.
All this sadness impacted
mum emotionally, but I was deeply concerned when she showed symptoms like
shortness of breath and general physical discomfort.
As you know, mum usually found
physical relieve after a session of kuat-sar traditional massage but
this time, there was only temporary relieve and after a day or two, she would
feel uncomfortable again. This called for more frequent kuat-sar treatments and
when mum was not feeling better, it made me more worried.
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A meaningful message scribbled inside a card to us...
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When mum finally agreed to
consult the physician, an appointment was fixed for the afternoon of Nov 5. But
on that very morning, her symptoms were so scary that Ruby and I did not
hesitate to rush mum to the Emergency Room.
Thankfully, mum’s hospital-stay
from Nov 5 to 9 with the doctor’s tests and treatments, yielded a positive
result. By simply reducing the daily dosage in her regular prescriptions from
the Government clinic, mum gradually recovered, and her breathing became normal
again.
After her discharge from
the hospital, Ruby stayed with us to lend a hand to help with managing mum
because she was still physically weak after her ordeal.
On Nov 17, Ruby invited
mum and I to move in to stay with her. Mum responded without hesitation,
probably because she knew that I could no longer manage her alone and realized that
Ruby and I could do better together.
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Your pair of wedding rings!
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The following weeks were a
frenzy of sorting through things that were accumulated from some 43 years in this
house. It was amazing how we managed to sort, sell, dump, keep or give away so
many things!
We uncovered a treasure
trove of wonderful memories not only from old stuff but also from the cards and
letters received. The messages scribbled are a warm reminder of the values you
have instilled in us and I remember how you enjoyed making music with your
banjo-mandolin for our sing-along sessions.
While mum and I were going
through her things, I saw your wedding rings and read the engraving within. I
know you and mum did not wear your rings constantly because it was not part of
your uniform and for mum, due to the nature of her work.
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Ferrying mum and Trixie to our new home on Dec 15, 2020
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From time to time, I would
talk to mum about the impending move so that we could internalize the thought
and prepare ourselves physically, mentally, and emotionally. Mum had made a
home with you and our family here, and we know that any change from a familiar
place would be very traumatic.
On Dec 15, with the help
of Charles and Siew Ying, Joy and Teck Hui, Ruby and I made the physical move happen
without a hitch. All of us, including Trixie, are gradually adjusting to the
change, and settling down into a new routine in the new place.
Incidentally, Amanda has relocated
to Johor Baru to start her career with an international school here. On Dec 31,
we shifted the final large item to her place. From the documents inside the
piano stool, we know you will like her to have your piano!
Then on Jan 11, Day 300 of
the CMCO, the Prime Minister announced that, in a further attempt to break the
chain of infection, Johor will go into lockdown again for two weeks from Jan 13
to 26 under MCO 2.0. So once again, we are staying home to stay safe.
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Removing the last large item: your piano!
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By the way Di, we can no
longer mark your departure with a meal at Niniq because this popular café had
no alternative but to close, along with many businesses affected by the lockdown
due to the global pandemic.
A great deal has changed in
the past few months, but something remains unchanged. Mum will always be loved
and well taken care of. And now she is blessed with two daughters and one
grand-daughter close to her.
We love and miss you so much, Di.